I always thought women who had "false labor" were unexperienced or maybe over-anxious and exaggerated. Well, after a couple nights in a row of "false labor" last week, I now know that it's very real and very confusing! I went through the pain and excitement, scribbling the minutes between contractions on scrap paper at 4 in the morning, going through the list in my head of everything I need to have ready for the hospital... and then sometime close to sun-up, everything slowed down and eventually I fell asleep and woke up later feeling fine. All I could think is that it was totally unfair. But even worse, I felt like the boy who cried "wolf". Did I imagine it? Did I exaggerate? I've already had one child, how can I mistake this? I hated telling everyone it was a false alarm.
Soon we had to go back to life as normal. I am trying to focus on my little boy and on endless nesting projects. My husband is back in his regular work routine, but he is always asking me if I've had contractions. I'm trying not to think about it, but I'm really thinking about it all the time. I often feel like if I could lump all the major lessons in my life into one theme, it would be TRUST. Trusting God. Maybe everyone could say that just because it really affects every area of life. Well, for me it does.
So once again, letting go, letting God. Trusting He knows the best timing and the best way and acknowledging that in the end, since He knows everything and loves me so much, I'd rather let Him orchestrate it all anyway. It doesn't keep me from giving Him suggestions throughout the day about my ideas of good timing though. :)
What a loving, patient and gentle Father.
I completely understand. I had multiple episodes of false labor with Ella. Some were during the day and others were during the night. Pete would get ready to go in with me and everything would stop. It's so hard to know when they are consistent and last for a good while. I'm so glad your little one has arrived safely and in God's timing. :)
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