I choose trust...again.

It seems like every season that I go through in life, I can always look back and say that trusting God was the greatest lesson I learned. I used to think that was just one of the lessons among many others that I would learn in life. After a few rounds of it, I started wondering if I was failing the lesson since I kept getting the same thing over and over. Now I realize, trusting God is pretty much at the core of everything else. I do learn many other things, but not without adding another layer of trust to my foundation.

In a matter of days, our little family is about to embark on a huge adventure: a transition from the very south of the country to the very north. I cannot put into words all the feelings and thoughts that this entails because this would become a novel and I have an entire kitchen to pack and two busy kids who will be awake shortly. But all I know is that above all the little voices of worry, fear and unanswered questions, I choose trust. I already know it's not going to be easy and that there will be a lot of adjustment. That's not a surprise. So rather than dwell on those things and try to control all the unknown details, I want to take one step at a time and let God lead. After all, we've done this before...this letting Him be in control thing. And we've always been better-off in the end than we could have orchestrated ourselves. Already in the steps leading up to this, we have seen God move on our behalf in ways we couldn't have made happen by ourselves! This fills me with such hope and excitement and I'd rather stick with those things than with worry and anxiety. We women sometimes have such a habit of trying to control things and figuring out just how everything needs to happen. Don't you wonder, though, what it could have been had you let God be in control? I don't want to wonder. :)

Disclaimer: I think God teaches us trust over and over because these are decisions we have to make daily, even from hour to hour. That is why I'm declaring this about myself, not because I have it all figured out.